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Friday, Dec. 31, 2004 - 1:04 pm Ooopssss I suck at updates
Ok I totally have been busy and cannot seem to find the time to update this sucker!!!

Highlights ~

Becca has cut out one tooth so far!!! YAY!!! It was a lil crazy a couple days before it came through but she is a rockin now~

Becca is still struggling to spend time on her tummy but can sit independently for up to 10 minutes!!!

We are heading out west in a week to visit family and are totally excited.

Ok Becca is totally not happy on the floor... Hope to write soon!!

Saturday, Nov. 06, 2004 - 7:51 am Highlights!!
Ok I really suck at keeping this updated!

Becca has been keeping me very busy!

Some Highlights......

We switched to cloth diapers! We decided that we go through way too many disposables and Becca was constantly getting a rash no matter how frequently we changed her. With the cloth diapers her rash has disappeared and only reappears when we put a disposable diaper on! Not only that, we are much kinder to the environent now! We are using all-in-one kushies, so no pinning or that jazz =)

We are also "baby-wearing" a lot. For those that are not aware of this phenonmen, it is thought that "wearing" your baby is better for oth baby and parents. For exmple...
The Research Shows:
Babies cry less because the sling creates an intimate and secure environment
Babies are more content and less colicky
Babies spend more time in a "state of quietness" - the optimal behavioral state of learning.
Your sling keeps baby close to you.
Protects baby from unwanted germs.
Baby can nurse easily and often.
Visual alertness is increased when babies can face forward to view their environment.
Parents who wear their babies experience a deep bonding with their children.

reference ~ Mother's Helper
Both J and I have enjoyed "wearing" Becca. I get housework done with Becca and talk to her and tell her what I am up to. J will work on the computer on his PhD stff and chat with her.

Becca and I are also attending a Baby Exercise and Massage class that is awesome (we have only gone once!). We play on the floor and do stretches and massages. Becca is way more interested in looking at all the other babies!

We start a mom and tots group through the health unit next week, so we shall see how that goes.

We try to keep busy and get out every day. It does not always happen, but we try!

UGH I have another cold! I am so frustrated! This is the second cold I have had since Becca was born. Poor J had to stay home yesterday becasue I was seriously bed ridden! However, he got to experience what my day is like with Becca! (it was not as "easy" as he had thought!!!)

I am UBER excited about Christmas this year. it is kinda sad that we will not be with family, but still exciting that it is Becca's first Christmas (we already bought her presents AND they are wrapped!!)

Ok. Becca is tired of watching me type! Hope to update sooner this time!!!

Sunday, Oct. 17, 2004 - 8:49 am Smiles, Bouncing and all that Jazz...
As I sit here, Becca is bouncing in her lil chair, smiling and kicking the toys with her feet. I know how blessed we are to have such a wonderful baby! We finally goot the beautiful smile of her's on camera! I will post it when I can (I have a lot of updating to do!)

OMG OMG OMG! I took Becca to the doctor for her vaccinations.....she weighed in at 13 lbs 8 oz!!!!!! AND get this....59 cm!!!! That si about 23 inches!?!?! She started off at 18!!!!

Ok but seriously, not just Rebecca's body is growing, her lil mind is so starting to take things in! She is looking across the room at things, oh my....she is smiling soooo much now (it warms your heart I swear) and she is starting to make connections with things. She absolutely loves sitting on my lap and looking into the mirror at us, I can even make her laugh doing that!

She has outgrown so many clothes that looked like they would fit her forever (altho it is kinda nice to look around for sales to get her some new stuff!) Outlet stores are a Mommy's best friend!

We have even put her in the Jooly Jumper a couple times and she LOVES it (altho she has not figured out how to "bounce" yet)

Uh Oh, Becca wants to play with me rather than on her own (who can blame her).......

Hope to post again soon!

Monday, Oct. 11, 2004 - 3:06 pm Happy Thanksgiving!
Happy Thanksgiving!

We had a wonderful time hosting another Thanksgiving Dinner for students and proffessors that cannot make it home. It was Rebecca's first Thanksgiving however, she was not alone in this. A German couple that works with J, Carson and Ebru (I am so sure I spelt that wrong sorry!!) joined us for their first Thanksgiving too!

~*sigh*~ Rebecca went for her very first walk without me yesterday! Two of the gals that came over for Thanksgiving dinner took Becca for a lil walk before dinner. OMG!! It was so hard to let her go! I totally trusted the girls but DAMN I have never really been parted from my baby since we brought her home (hehe except for the time my wonderful mother in law watched her while J & I went out to eat, but that was Becca's Grandma!)So I fretted about until they were back. It is not that I would not leave Becca but why? I have no urge to not take our baby with us. lol! I sure that will change some day! Besides her Grandparents are going to want to "steal" her for visits when she is older!

So as I type, my sweet baby sleeps in her swing and my wonderful husband is sleeping off his hangover. He is such a doll. Becca stayed up late last night, all the excitement of having people over had her all worked up and she had troubles sleeping. I was exhausted!! J got up early and stayed with her while I slept! Now it is his turn!

Well I am off to snoop around the internet and relax....Happy Thanks giving!

Wednesday, Oct. 06, 2004 - 3:45 pm Catch Up...
Well once again time has shot by me and I have been unable to update this blog.

There are times I have thoughts that I want to post but the computer seems so far away from me and my new life. I feel like I have been reborn becoming a mother. It is the greatest journey I have ever taken. Luckily, it is one that I get to take with the love of my life. J, is such an amazing father. He adores Becca and me. I am not sure how I ever became so fortunate! I have to admit it is hard sometimes beng so far away from our families. I hate that we can not share Becca with them all the time. I guess the best we can do now is share the photos and phone calls.

J has had some wonderful news on his post-doc future. He has recieved an offer from a proffessor. It is exciting and uber scary. Also very sad in many ways. In order to secure the future of our family, not all of us will be on the path. It looks as though California will be our next stop, and although it breaks my heart (and J's) we will have to take this next step without Sidney and Charisma. California is over-populated and it would be impossible for us to afford to rent a house there that could be home to all of us. Even the apartments are expensive and we will be living on one income there =( I have talked to my cousin Trina and she has agreed to talk to her future husband about taking Sidney into their home! I know in my heart Sidney will be very happy there (maybe even happier than in the city...they live on a wonderful farm!). UGH just typing it brings tears to my eyes, even though i know it is the best decision for our family (even Sidney). I hope Charisma will go to live with my Dad (although I have not asked him yet). Charisma and my Dad would be very happy together as well and I think my Dad could use the company after a long hard shift on the Train to come home to a talkitive and happy cat. Charisma is a cool cat that does not need someone around all the time(he actually prefers his "me" time and comes to visit when he feels liek it). So I am excited and sad about the next chapter in our family's life story. I am also determined to teach Becca all about Canada while we are in the US. UGH she will not know about snow until we get back!!! lol sure she will see it this winter but like she will remember!

Becca is doing awesome. Now that she is totall secure in the weight and growing department I worry about other things. I guess that is what parenting is though, right? You worry about your children, if they are ok, if you are doing a good job....I just want her to smile! LOL! She does smile but not as much as I wish she would =P Another wise parent suggested that she may just be a serious thinking kinda kid....well that is from her Daddy if that is the case!!!!! She is going for second set of first shots next week. She was still kinda tiny when she went the first time so the doctor decided to split them up.

This weekend is Thanksgiving! J and are are rekindling the Thanksgiving tradition we started the first year we were here. All the students, post-docs and even proffessors that are not going to be with family will be coming to our place for Thanksgiving Turkey Dinner!! Hehe I am very excited!

Well I should head off to see in Becca is ready to get up from her nap. Oh Oh!! She is sleeping so awesome she is usually in bed by 8-9ish every night!!! And only gets up once a night! Totalyl nice to sleep =P

Thursday, Sept. 30, 2004 - 2:09 pm Tears, Smiles and Travels
phew...ok seriously life has been crazy!

We just got back from Nigara Falls....we met my Dad and Grandma there....They both were here last week visiting....And Becca was baptisized...Just craziness all around...

I have to share a lil event....

I have started pumping so J can give Becca the bottle every night....just so she gets used to it in case I have to go to work early or anything comes up that I cannot breastfeed.WELL>........Rebecca the super trooper ofcourse took the bottle awesome....I stood there watching in tears....my lil baby does not need me!!! Yet I knew she would be awesome. J really likes being part of the process and I can hardly blame him.

Rebecca is smiling a lot more lately. This morning it was so sweet! I brought her back to bed with me after her 6 am feeding (I was not ready to be done with sleeping) she was all cozy and sleeping...J got up and then I woke up....Becca was still sleeping....then she slowly woke up and gave us both huge smiles..!!!! What a great way to start the day!!

Rebecca travelled really well. She slept the entire trip to Nigara and enjoyed being carted around in the snuggly while we checked out the falls!
We went under the falls and on a boat right up to the falls....it was frikin amazing! It was nice to spend more time with my Dad and Grandma too!

I am so happy they were able to come out and see Rebecca. It makes me so sad that it will not be till July that we are going to see our families again. I am really glad we decided to start our family now but at times it is so hard to be so far away from everyone!

Well I am off to check on my wonderful daughter......Cia!

Saturday, Sept. 18, 2004 - 4:58 pm Take a Deep Breath.........And Blah blah Blah.....
Ok I am really finding it a challenge to keep this stinking thing updated....A BIG "Sorry" to my faithful readers =P

Rebecca is growing like wild! She went for her first shots last Tuesday and weighed in at 11 lbs!! She took the shot well but was a lil cranky that afternoon.

We have been struggling to get Rebecca to settle down and sleep at night. Seems she is a bit of a night owl like Mommy! We are working on it though.

Rebecca has continued to give us smiles randomly. And she is totally "seeing" her environment around her more and more, it is totally cool!

J the sweety bought me Sims2....w00t w00t fun to play!! I have not had a tom of time to try out all the new features but it is a fun game so far!

My Dad and Grandma will be arriving on Monday....Totally looking forward to visiting with them and that they will be attending Becca's baptism!!!

Well I better head out to church, J had to spend the day at the lab so it is just me and boo tonight at church! Hope to update soon.....Chelle

Thursday, Sept. 09, 2004 - 10:52 am Another Quickie
YAY! We met with our Priest last night and Rebecca will be baptised while my Grandma and Dad are visiting! PLUS! They can be the GodParents!!! I am so excited and relieved! We were not sure how smoothly this process would go!

Becca is doing awesome in her crib...UH OH Got to go She just woke up!

Saturday, Sept. 04, 2004 - 8:07 am w00t w00t
w00t w00t! 2 Days in a row!

Phew! I just updated Rebecca's Webpage too! I guess the only way to get these things done is to wake up before everyone else does! Rebecca woke up at 6:30am I fed her and she dozed back off to sleep, so I figured it was a great time to update the website!

Awww...Last night was the first night that Rebecca spent the night in her own room! She did awesome! I guess she did not need to sleep in our room as much as we needed her to sleep in our room ~*blush*~

We went out to the Mall yesterday to pick up a lil stereo for Becca's room and a lamp. We found a great stereo from Sears (YAY! We still had a gift card from there too!!) but we are still searching for a lamp. We went to Walmart after checking Zellars (I do not want to pay a ton for a lamp!)UGH! All the lamps are ugly!!! Or like way flashy or hugely tall!?!? So Jason spotted this Winni the Pooh lamp and asked me if I liked it....I was like WTH?!?! Jason and Winnie the Pooh????? He had forcefully banned the character from our home and now he wants Rebecca to have a Winnie the Pooh lamp? Someone has abducted my husband and replaced him with this clone that like Winnie! So we bought the lamp (and to give J credit....the shade matched the bedding in Becca's room!), but once we got it home we discovered the shade was crushed so now we have to return it!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! I hate returning items!!!!!

HAHAHA!! Jason and I have been on a Monty Python kick! We have been renting the videos and totally laughing our a$$es off! That and we have been watching "Big Brother 5" on TV....We are so lame....but enjoying it!

Ooooooooooo! I got awesome news today!!! My cousin is pregnant!! They had been trying forever and now are totally psyched!!! It is awesome! Becoming a Mom has been the most amazing experience for me, so I hope everyone that wants to experience parenthood, have the opprotunity to do so!

Wow the house is soooo quiet....I am going to go snuggle up on the couch and read for a lil while before Becca wakes up.....uh oh I hear her stirring......It will not be long now......

Friday, Sept. 03, 2004 - 7:31 am Bad Chelle Bad.....hehe
Ok Ok....I have been terrible at updating this thing! Life with Rebecca keeps me very busy and happy =)

She is totally growing so awesome! She weighed in last week at 9lbs!!! That is double her birth weight! We are also seeing a new doctor that is WAY better so I am so happy! We think Rebecca may have "smiled" for the first time last Saturday, but it has been really random since then only smiling a few more times. Last night she was in her swing while J and I ate dinner, and she was totally smiling at the toys that dangle in her line of vision!! Ofcourse, when I thought of the camera, she was done smiling =( We were so entranced by her smiles!! Rebecca is so beautiful!

I went for my 6 week check up with the OB earlier this week and all looks good. Rebecca saw her new doctor and he will be dividing up her shots into 2 because she is still small for her "age". OMG the new doctor was so what I expected a doctor should be like with her....

Uh Oh....Rebecca is a calling....Will try to come back more often =)

Friday, Aug. 20, 2004 - 4:14 pm Sleep?? What is this sleep u speak of??
Ok Becca has been keeping me Uber Busy! She is nursing every two hours so we are bonding LOTS! I am Uber Tired but loving being with my daughter! Now that I am getting used to only sleeping an hour or so at a time I am actually enjoying the time with Becca. It can get stressful and I totally understand why people bottle feed instead. But we will prevail and keep at it. I have been stressed and worried lately not feeling a lot of support from her doctor. So I made an appointment with the Newborn Clinic just to get her weighed and vent off some of my worries....Also Today's Parent has these amazing forums and this week they had an expert on breast feeding answering questions....I posted some of my worries and it was awesome to read her response...I am NORMAL!!! And now I have it in writing =P ~*sigh*~ Rebecca is actually sleeping and not waking because I am not holding her!! Now I get to run around the house and make sure the laundry gets done and the house is respectable at the very least!

Aww I am so worried for my friend's dog =( He has a tumor and is in surgery today =( I so hope all turns super well for them both!!!

eeep! there goes getting stuff done....J called going to pick him up cause it is raining....

Sorry I have not posted in so long....sleep has become a prioriy instead =) Be back soon!!!

Saturday, Aug. 14, 2004 - 11:20 am HAHAHAHA
HAHAHA ~ So I was a lil bitter that J had the opprotunity to sleep in this morning. Don't get me wrong J is Uber Awesome at helping out but as a "Dad" he can choose when he gets up....Where I have to get up....Well Rebecca got sweet revenge on Daddy for sleeping in hehe....

J gets up and grabs a coffee in time for Becca to be changed in between feeding....hehe...she is poopy which is normal but then HAHAHA.....As he puts the new diaper down she EXPLOIDS another huge poop....haha...then he grabs yet another diaper....Rebecca is all quiet and calm and he looks to me "Think it is safe??"...I figure yes....HAHA NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! Becca exploids again and shoots her poo all over including on DADDY!!!! I almost died laughing!!!! That is my lil girl!!!! HAHAHA!!!!

On another note.....My Aunt Lee sent me this link....Please Please Sign this petition....The border being closed to Canadian Beef totally sucks....Not just for Canadians but Americans are out of jobs because of this too!!

Support Your Canadian Ranchers!!

Saturday, Aug. 14, 2004 - 9:07 am A Quickie
This week has flown by....I can not believe it is Saturday!

Hanging out with Becca is so awesome, but I find it easy to let the housework slack off....she is an awesome excuse! She is growing so much! Every day I find another outfit or sleeper that no longer fits =0 hehe Sadly she is not quite big enough for the next size up so she is swimming in them!!! I have to roll up the sleeves and she keeps getting her feet lost out of the pant leg!!!

OMG OMG Rebecca totally slept 2 four hour spurts last night! It was awesome but the first part she slept with us....there is that total co-sleeping controversy and I definately do not want to make it a habit but she needed to be close to us and the second four hour sleep she totally slept on her own. (btw no gripe water was needed either w00t w00t).

Well off to get ready for the day....

Tuesday, Aug. 10, 2004 - 7:04 pm Happy One Month BirthDay Rebecca
WOW~ So my lil Rebecca is one month old today!! We celebrated by heading out to visit Mary Ann, Dillan, & Jordan then popped over to the group home I work at to say Hola to the guys and my co-workers. Becca and I had a wonderful afternoon visiting everyone!

Tomorrow morning we are off to Sears to get Becca's first "official" portrait done! The picture we used for the birth announcement was one that we took ourselves =P hehe tomorrow should be fun. Totally sucks that Becca cannot fit into any of her amazing outfits yet, but I am sure we will figure something out! She is around 7lbs now! It is so awesome!

J headed back to the U to do some lab work, Becca is sleeping....I have time to be me!!! I have the music playing, this is so relaxing....I love being a mom but I forgot what it was like to be well just Chelle! Being a mom and Chelle is way more uber than just Chelle =)

OMG~ So we went to the doctor yesterday....pfft he is an idiot =P I am so not impressed. We asked him about Becca's gas...Keep in mind Rebecca cries when the gas is bad but once it has passed she stops PLUS if she is fussy (as babies tend to be at times) she stops crying/fussing if we hold her.....The doctor listens to her tummy and states that she is colic!?!??!?! WTF?!?!?!? Every definition of colic I have read says 3 days, 3 hours of non-stop unconsolable crying.....we said she cried when the gas passed....how does that equate to COLIC!?!??! Seriously, Rebecca at this point is so not colic....she is still tiny and does love to be held but show me a baby that doesn't? Besides she so does nto cry 3 hours in a row....or even close, like 5 minutes tops...pffft...

Ok I have to resize some pics before my family and friends start an angry mob and come after me =P

Sunday, Aug. 08, 2004 - 7:44 am Brain Puke!
I sat and watched Rebecca as she slept in my arms this morning. It was amazing to just watch her little facial expressions as she drifted off to sleep. I cannot believe she will be a month old on Tuesday! Time is flying by...and she is growing so well! We have an appointment at Sears to get a photo done to mark her one month birthday.

Poor J, he is so used to going to the lab on weekends and evenings but with Rebecca here, he is finding that a lot mmore difficult. Yesterday he had the opprotunity to go in the afternoon but we took a family nap instead =P I hope we can make it happen more frequently for him. Not that I can blame him I would much rather be around Becca than go to a stinky chem lab =P

Oooo I forgot to mention....J and I are attending Church! In order for Rebecca to be baptized in the Catholic church we need to be part of the church community. So we have been attending faithfully the last few weeks. I did not expect J to come with Becca and I, but he has volunteered to attend with us. I have to admit it is a good feeling to attend church again. I am a little annoyed though, this parish seems to talk of "money" a lot. It seems odd to me, but maybe it is because it is such a small parish?

The gripe water seems to continue to work. Rebecca slept two 3-hour shifts last night! I feel like I could run a marathon with all this sleep I am getting! Instead I will probably clean the house =P

On Thursday, Rebecca had her very first playdate!! (and can u believe I forgot to take a picture!!) Marz & Nathan came over to play! It was awesome to chat with Marz and see Nathan smile and play! Nathan is 3 months old so it was neat to see what we have to look forward to with Becca!

Next weekend is exciting!! We have been invited to Dillan's Christening (Mary Ann's son). It is our first party/event to go to with Rebecca!! I hope she puts on a few more layers so she can fit into one of the amazing outfits her Grandma sent!!!

I am so lucky to have Marz and Mary Ann in my life. They are both new mom's and wonderful women! It is awesome to be able to share this new experience with good friends!

I still need to make the time to finish some photo editing so I can post them on the website. I just put all Becca's photo's in her first photo-albulm and I am still wroking on her memory book.

Dad booked his flights to come see us this fall. Both Dad and Grandma are very excited to come out here. Haha Grandma even bought a new pair of pants for the occasion!! I can't believe it is only a little over a month until they are here! It is going to be soooo awesome!

I am reading to Rebecca everytime she eats during the day (At night I am *trying* to establish a difference so we are quiet and no story). hehe We are reading "Harry Potter", I figured it would take a few months to make it through the series and then maybe she will be more into the story process. Right now I am sure all she hears is Wah wah wha wah (my rendition of Charlie Brown's teacher). But it helps the time pass for both of us and she is getting to know my voice and all that jazz!

Speaking of Becca, I better go get a little housework done before she wakes!

Friday, Aug. 06, 2004 - 9:04 am The Holy Grail
OMG OMG OMG!

Ok so Becca has been a bit fussy the last week or so, nothing crazy or even that frustrating just hate to see her upset. So I am reading on the forums at Today's Parent (there is a link on the left) and I am looking for info on Vitamin D supplement (ugh I will get to that!). Anyway, I come across some posts about gripe water and this other stuff to help baby thaat are fussy and gassy.....hmmm sounds like Becca....I mention it to J then continue to read. They talk about some Dr. Sears guy's book blah blah blha (might pick up that book now). Later on last night J is on the computer working on some crystal structures, takes a break to look up Gripe Water.....Out of the blue he is all "want me to go right now to get some?" I wa like ummm it is after 10pm, but if you u really want to.....

He goes out to get some....Once home we give a lil to Becca....it obviously not as yummy as her normal meals but she swallows some of it......................

BECCA SLEPT FOR FOUR YES I SAID FOUR HOURS IN A ROW!!!!!!

For all you not-parents-yet or for those that have forgotten.....that is amazing feeling for me to sleep uninterupted that LONG!!! Gripe Water is the HOLY GRAIL for Rebecca!!! She was happier less fussy and cried less during EVERYTHING....Ummmm why do people forget to tell us the simple stuff??? I looked in my baby books....nothing! Not one mention of Gripe Water...If it was evil they would at least mention that right? It better not be evil my baby feels better!!!

Ok about that Vitamin D supplement crap. I seriously have no recollection of anyone mentioning Breast Fed Babies needing any supplements....one of the biggest things for advocates of breast feeding is that it is tailored for you baby and you do not need supplements....blah blah blah...

I mentioned it on the forums and most moms replied that they gave it to their infant in winter or not at all....I plan on mentioning it to my doctor on monday since we have an appointment.....But damn why did he not mention it the last appointment? Gawwwdddd I hope I am not going to have to mention everything to the doctor to get things done right....He is the frikin dr he should know?!?!?!?! Am I wrong???

I really hope my happier Becca was not just a fluke...and I pray for more sleep (although I have survived longer on less sleep so I am not totally attached to the idea of sleeping)....May Gripe Water be Becca's Holy Grail....

Wednesday, Aug. 04, 2004 - 4:25 pm There again? Or stay ... Gone again
~*sigh*~ I mentioned this to J the other night and here I sit thinking about it again. On occassion since I left There (online community, even worked for the company breifly), I feel this pull to go back and become involved again. It could never be like it was, not only do I have way more going on in real life, the old crew is long gone and I feel differently about the company and myself. I became so wrapped up in that community and it came at a time in my life that was hollow and empty. I had my loving, adoring husband that amazes each and everyday, but that was it. No career, no friends, nothing to look forward except a very busy husband that was busting his ass off trying to get finished school so I would no longer be tormented! So what is different now in reality? I FINALLY saw how involved I was in the virtual community, and how disconnected I had become from reality. It was so much easier to log in and be Uber than it was to be Uber in Real Life. Sadly, I had everything my heart could desire in reality but I could not see past the empty feeling I had.

....Now, I not only do I have Becca in my world, but I have a different sense of self. I stopped playing or participating in any online thing a few months ago. Actually just before I got really really sick. I was just getting into the groove of things in Reality when I was told that I had to be on bed rest.....Crazy Karma eh?

I will have to explore these feelings another time if they still exist.... I have been stuck in the house all day due to rainy weather and J just IMed me so we are going to take Becca out to the mall for a little while. hehe I spend no money on myself anymore but I can always think of a way to spend it on Becca!!!! Ugh I hate to wake her she is sleeping so peacefully!

Tuesday, Aug. 03, 2004 - 9:34 am hot humid and busy
Ok seriously, Becca keeps me uber busy! I love it!

It is so nice to have a purpose in life again. We had a wonderful long weekend with J around the entire time. Poor guy only went to the chem lab once all weekend! But we walked him back to work this morning so he back in the routine!

UGH! It is so hot and humid here! I usually walk down by the river after dropping J off at work in the morning, but seriously I was coated in sweat and panting!!! So Becca and I headed home.

Well I am off to get some housework done while Becca is content taking a nap (that could change rather quickly so I need to take the time when I can).

Hopefully we will get into a routine soon so I can have a lil time here to post and all that jazz.....ugh....still need to work on the family website too!

Saturday, Jul. 31, 2004 - 9:03 am w00t w00t For Americans
I do not have two hands so this is going to be short & sweet!

Americans DO have a sense of humour!!!

Too Funny! Click Me =P

I hope to update this soon!!

Thursday, Jul. 29, 2004 - 10:05 am Time Shifts
Slowly I am making changes to the family website. Time is a completely different concept once you have a baby. I am so not complaining, I love every moment with Becca.

Rebecca is an amazing baby. She has her moments of unexaplainable crying that breaks your heart but most of the time she is just happy to be here. She is awake more and more; it is so wonderful to be able to interact with her. At first she would eat, poo and sleep (no specific order), just eating and being alive took all her energy. But now that she is getting bigger (almost 6lbs!!) she is able to spend more time awake!

Yesterday, after walking Daddy to work, Rebecca and I went for a walk down by the river. She slept the entire way, she loves her stroller time! Once home though, she was wide awake and "helped" me clean the bathroom (have you ever cleaned the bathroom one handed? I tell you it is a skill!) When I was finishing up, Becca had some tummy time and tried to avoid being smothered with kisses by Sidney! It was so awesome that she slent so much time awake!

Eepp! Speaking of the lil devil....Got to go.....

Wednesday, Jul. 28, 2004 - 10:09 am The Reason.......
Hmm ~ Well as you can tell Rebecca has been keeping me very busy! (although I am so not complaining)

My Mother-in-Law left this morning =( It was so wonderful having her here! It has been amazing. I am so glad J and I decided to invite our parents to come see us after the birth of Rebecca! Family seems even more important now...

Now Rebecca, J and I get to establish a little routine for ourselves! Rebecca and I are going to walk J to work every morning (weather permitting). Other than that I am not sure how Rebecca and I will fill our days. LMAO I am sure she will dictate most of the day! At the moment she is chilling out in her new swing right next to the computer! How long she will last is a mystery! She has been snoozing since we left this morning to walk J to work.

Ok seriously, I knew being a mom would be Uber Cool, but OMG people!!! It is way better than I ever imagined!!!!!! I am so overjoyed J & I decided to go for this! He is amazing as a Dad! So tender and considerate. Not that I expected any less from him, he is an amazing man and husband! HAHA if he has half the patience with Rebecca that he has had with me she is going to have an awesome Dad!

I hope to have the time to add more to the family website soon, including some more pictures. I have a few little projects to get done. I finally (after quite the search) found a wicked cool baby memory book for Rebecca, now I have to fill it in! Plus J and I have to go through all the pictures and get some developed from the digital camera! And the website! hehe it is a good thing I actually enjoy doing that stuff!

Ooooo Becca is awake and looking hungry! That is my cue to take off for now. I will try to make it here everyday =P

Oh....I love this song and bought the CD the weekend before Rebecca was born, this is the first time I have had to listen to it!!!! The following song totally touched me, I think of J and Becca everytime I hear it.....They are my Reason for Being.....I love them both so much!!!!

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

Hoobastank ~ The Reason

~*~sigh~*~

Sunday, Jul. 18, 2004 - 10:45 am BABY!
Eeeeekk Real quick....Rebecca Ann was born Tuesday, July 13, 2004 at 3:03 pm!!! She is just over a month early so she is in the NICU still, I will update once we are home!!!

SHE IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND AWESOME!!!

Saturday, Jul. 10, 2004 - 8:29 am Banner
Weee ~ Finally Made a Banner....Totally simplistic but hey it is a start!

Saturday, Jul. 10, 2004 - 7:30 am Sweat Pea not so Sweet
I mentioned my sore tummy yesterday, well it landed me in the hospital yesterday =( No Worries ~ I am ok and Becca is awesome ~ Well Becca is already a BRAT =P After returning to bed again I woke up in more pain than ever =( It totally sucked and it started to worry me. UGH ~ Off we go to the Triage at the hospital to make sure the pain is not related to the pre-eclampsia. Luckily, my blood work all looked good and Rebecca sounded awesome! MY blood pressure was through the roof and same with the protien in my urine though....not good signs. My OB was uber busy preforming a c-section but the OB that I saw was super nice and reassuring. It was totally freaky to think that Becca could have been born yesterday if that blood work came back scary =( Thankfully all is well. I came home yesterday still ina ton of pain that kept getting a lil better then progressively worse. The OB did mention that Becca was sitting really high in my tummy. Well! It was hurting really bad and I pressed down to see if it was her and SHE KICKED ME BACK!!! It was her all along making me uber uncomfortable!!!! I guess I should be happy to know that I have a tough, strong willed lil daughter in there! It seems as though she finally moved last night, for when I woke up this morning it so did not hurt like last night!

So I have been toying with the redesign of all the websites blah blah blah ... I was looking over some ideas that I like and I don't know. I think it is all way over my head. I really want to learn how to do it though. I think I may have to talk to J about investing in a book on scripting or web design. Once Becca is here I totally want to check out the library but in the meantime it would be cool to have a book to read through and maybe learn a little more. I look at website tutorials and that jazz but I can not sit at the computer uber long because of the swelling (seriously lame excuse but totally valid). I have so many ideas and desires but I do not have the knowledge base tofigure it all out =( FRUSTRATING!!!! Patience is a good virtue I suppose ~*sulks*~

Friday, Jul. 09, 2004 - 8:32 am CHEESE I NEED CHEESE WITH THIS WHINE
ugh ~ I totally felt like crap yesterday. I can hardly wait for this to end so my whining can cease! I must be coming across as a uber negative person, but I am just UBER frustrated. I am not one that takes kindly to not having my own way =P Only Child Syndrome! I spent a lil time on my new concept for the webpages this morning. UGH! My ideas always end being hard to do. Hopefully I can figure it out eventually. That or I continue to use the easy ways =P. I just want to learn some new stuff with out getting all ber frustrated.

J has been so fantasic helping out. He totally deserves a vacation after all this...haha oh wait this is just the beginning~! Seriously, I totally owe him big time for being so patient and understanding.

*sigh* my tummy hurts I am going back to bed...*sulks to bed whining about her tummy =( *

Wednesday, Jul. 07, 2004 - 7:15 am Still Going and Going....
Phew! Dr says I am still hanging in there and the blood pressure is not going up too quickly. YAY!

It is kinda hard to "rest" so much when overall I do not feel "sick". But OB says the longer I can keep the BP down the longer Becca has to grow inside. I sooo do not want her to have to go into the NICU!!!

So I have been doing a LOT of sleeping. I did not know it was humanly possible to sleep this much!~ UGH! Normally it would be such a waste of time! OMG I am also watching the lamest of TV! HAHA spent the evening watching Big Brother 5 and the Amazing Race....totally crazy~!

I am heading to the unemployment office today. For my sweet American friends, the reason is to apply for unpaid sick leave and maternity benefits. I should recieve 50 weeks for Maternity and Parental and maybe addition for being told to stop working from the Doc. Not totally sure about the unpaid sick benefits (kind of cool that they exist though rather than me using the Maternity Leave time). Anyway, the government helps out new moms (& dads) stay at home for up to a year by subsidizing them 55% of their estimated wage for that time period. Canada Rocks!!!

Speaking (or typing rather) of Canada. I had an awesome idea for the nursery =P J and I were talking about nothing and everything and got to geography. We named all the proviences and yada yada yada....figuring we better have some clue once Becca goes to school!! So then I was like OMG! Why not have a Canadian Map up in the nursery (nice and colourful!) and put up beavers and Canadian icons =P (well maybe not the beer icons which leaves little else~~haha). I am not sure J took me seriously but I totally want to do it!~

Off to shower so I can be like the first person at the unemployment office~! LOOK OUT BUMS~~!!

Tuesday, Jul. 06, 2004 - 7:02 am SKUNK!!!
HAHA ~ Even though I am not working weekends I still cannot seem to post entries!! I was kinda under the weather all weekend, feeling groggy and tired.

But the conclusion of the weekend was ummm CRAZY! J and I were up late talking so it was around 2am when I went to let the dog out....Lo and Behold, Sidney got nailed by a skunk!!! AND BAD! Poor girl got sprayed right in the eyes!!! So I stayed outside with her while J sped to the drug store to get peroxide....2 hours later and the three of us exhausted everyone was cleaned up the best we could and headed to bed. Poor J, had to take Sidney out for walks everytime she needed to go potty, because the backyard was still very very stinky!

I slept ALL day yesterday, then J gave me a ride to get my haircut. OMG I needed a trim soooo bad. Hehe got the eyebrows waxed too, sadly that was over due as well. J kept looking at me in awe!

Eeep! So J and I are heading to the OB this morning to have my blood pressure and all that Jazz checked. I so did not sleep last night. I would drift in and out thinking about seeing the Dr today. It is so silly, and out of my control but I cannot help but worry =( I will update soon!

~*~*~Happy non-blood pressuring rising thoughts~*~*~

Friday, Jul. 02, 2004 - 6:52 pm Feeling Good
Weeee ~ Canada Day was Awesome!

J and I spent the day together, it was just what I needed to get out of my slump and feel good again! Ugh, having this pre-eclampsia sucks though, I totally get tired uber fast =( But we did a little shopping and had an amazing steak dinner with corn on the cob...Mmmmmmmmmmm! While shopping, J got me a cute nursing PJ set for the hospital and cutie blue fuzzy slippers. It sounds lame but I totally wanted new PJ's for the hospital. After we had dinner we rented a ps2 game and played for hours! Totally perfect night. After we stayed up late chatting about goofy jazz! May Mr-Happy live Forever!!!

OMG OMG ~ We have a mouse in our HOUSE!!! The other night (I think after our prenatal class) I went into the kitchen to get a drink and it scooted under the stove!! J and I tried to get it out (HAHA with fly swatters!!) but had no luck. J went out and bought mouse traps but so far the little bugger is still at large. It is soooo wonderful to see that our Cat and Dog are so frikin hard at work!!!

Maryann, Jordan and Dillan stopped by today for a visit!! OMG they are so cute! Dillan is like a week old!!! Jordan loved playing witht he dog and cat and it was awesome to visit with Maryann again!

w00t off to shower! HAHA lazy I do not work days.......

Thursday, Jul. 01, 2004 - 10:12 am Happy Canada Day!!!

Happy Canada Day!

Image Thanks to CPR Antiques

Yesterday was such a crumby day for me. My body ached and I was uber miserable =( My poor husband always gets the most severe consequences when I am unable to deal with feeling yucky. But thankfully he is understanding and then I look like a big meany and I realize I am way overreacting and apologize. Ugh, I hate being wrong! I mean there is usually a grain of truth in the hormonal explosion but still I way overreact and totally cannot even stop myself. HAHA there have been times where I am like OMG I am totally hormonal look out and J ducks for cover!

WOW! We went to our prenatal class last night, it was all about breatfeeding! It was so awesome! The nurse was great and totally not crazy into it but totally realistic. It was amazing to see the "correct" was to get a proper latch and all that jazz. I cannot imagine being able to figure it out right without that class. I am totally excited now to give it a try. I was totally planning on breatfeeding but was totally nervious that it would not work out or I would do it "wrong". Now I feel way more confident and the nurse was so into getting the Dads to help. It was GREAT!! Seriously, if you have difficultes with breast feeding you totally have to see a BreastFeeding Consultant before you give up (MHO)!

Hoping for a Better Day!

Wednesday, Jun. 30, 2004 - 7:33 am Grrr
*sigh* Went to the OB yesterday =( I received good news and bad news.

Good News ~ No protien in the urine ~ YAY! my kidneys are not leaking!!!

Bad News ~ No more Working ~ My blood pressure was elevated even more so .... he insisted no more work =(

I called my boss but she has not returned my phone calls (I hope that is not because she is so upset she cannot talk to me =0 ).

So OMG I have like up to 6 weeks stuck at home, on bed rest!!!! I swear I am going to get cabin fever!! I am going to try to sleep a lot but ugh! I am up this morning so J could sleep in. See it is not like I can be home doing stuff, like cleaning and getting ready for baby....I have to rest or the blood pressure is going to spike and they are going to have to go in there and get Rebecca out! Like Way Early! *sigh* This is going to suck. hahaha Let's hope I have a better attitude about it later......Cia

Monday, Jun. 28, 2004 - 12:08 pm Weekend Update....
Ok my weekend was Uber Busy!! I worked a lot and rested in between. The people I work with are so sweet! Totally understanding that I would not be working like a mad woman when on shift. HAHA now that does not mean I am going to slack though! I have no idea how people live with themselves when they slack at work, I can barely sit down without thinking damn there has to be something else I can take care of.....I have 3 evening shifts left then I am on straight overnights which are easier to find relax time on.

At home I am resting a lot. It takes a lot of effort to rest! It is super hard to watch J do a ton of the house work stuff too =( He is so awesome to take care of it though!! We cleaned the car this weekend (I know I kow I was not suppose to help)....But OMG it looks NEW!! hehe amazing what a little elbow grease will do *blush* LONG over due cleaning!

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! My Mother-in-Law is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO AWESOME!!! Not only is she going to come to see Rebecca when she is born and stay a little while to help us get settled, she also found all these AMAZING outfits at a garage sale (I think). The outfits totally ROCK!! And now I am so not worried about not having enough for the baby. I have been trying so hard to be careful and not over spend since babies grow so fast. The outfits totally look like new and range in size, I was totally blown away. Becca is sooo lucky to have such an awesome Grandma!!!!! She also sent out this cool vibrating thingy to sooth the baby, it is so neat! Awwww and these kits to make casts of the baby's feet and hands!!! HAHA she also sent treats for J & I!!! Totally thoughtful and such a nice surprise, I cried when going through the clothes (darn hormones!!)

I talked to my Grandma last night. She is such a cutie!! She updated me on Aunt Lee's condition....wow how scary!!! I am glad Lee is recoverying but wow! Brave woman! Nice to know my family is full of brave women! After we talked about Lee, we chatted about babies. (Oh Oh My Aunt Lee had pre-eclampsia with my cousin Christopher....and all turned out great!!!! Happy News). Grandma talked about the baby boom in the area of Moose Jaw close to the end of WWII (haha there was a miltary base there for pilots!!!). She said the maternity ward was so full they were putting women in the hallways on beds!!!! The art of child birth has changed so much since my grandmother's time. She said for all of her shildren she was knocked out and woke up after they were born!!! I can't even imagine! To think now a lot of women are fully awake for C-Sections!!!! She went on to say that they kept the women in the hospital for 2 WEEKS~ and they were not allowed to get out of bed the entire time!!! Not even to pee!!!! They had to call the nurse and go in a bedpan then were rinsed by the nurse!!! (HAHA Grandma said some women complained the water was too cold!!) So different from procedures now!

We talked about Shirley a little too. Becoming a mother has stirred up a lot of emotions for me. It is hard to understand everything that has happened. Grandma said Shirley was still in contact with her a little. Nice, talk to my Grandma but not me even though I was suppose to be your "daughter". An aspect of this that blows my mind, is that my Dad still cares about Jason (step-son not my husband) and was upset this weekend because of him! Now my Dad shows feelings in a dad way, you know. He was mad because his step-son is pulling crap, but he is mad because he still cares! So my Dad, who was always (unjustly I might add) labelled the jerk because he was "mean" to her son, still cares about him, YET Shirley, who everyone thought cared soooo much about me (what a joke!) has not even inquired with my Dad to see how I am doing.....AND she knows J and I are expecting our first child. Ok is it just me or is there something really f**ked up here?!?!?! Sorry it just really irks me that people still make her out to be this saint/martyr!!! To me she has remained distant and cold, oh oh UNLESS people are around or there is a show to perform (ex. my wedding was totally a show for her!)...Hmmm you know it feels really good to let some of my anger and frustration out here. *ends rant* hehe

Well I am off to have some lunch and get ready for work .... hehe and to peek at those clothes that Betty Ann sent again!!! I am such a geek!!!

Friday, Jun. 25, 2004 - 12:07 pm WOW ~ Wicked Cool Experience
I missed my first day (of many I imagine) but I have a really really good excuse!

MaryAnn went into labor yesterday!!! She and her husband along with her parents, headed to the hospital yesterday morning after her contractions became regular. When they examined her, she was only 2cm dilated and the contractions she was having were not working =( She called me to see if she could come to our place to relax instead of heading all the way home (they live in the county!) Ofcourse her and her family are welcome here, so half an hour later, MaryAnn was lying comfy on our bed and we talked inbetween her contractions. I have to admit it pained me to hear her whimper when the contractions were intense but it was so amazing to experience this with her. Lying down for an hour seemed to have done the trick, MaryAnn's contractions were getting more intense and she was super curious to see if they had begun to work on her cervix. They headed back to the hospital to check it out. A few hours later her mom called to say that MaryAnn had her little baby boy!!! It was so exciting and even more crazy to play a small part in it!!! Now I can hardly wait till it is time for Rebecca to come!!!! It is going to be so awesome!!!!

J and I had a super relaxing night. We pigged out on chinease food (bad bad bad I know =P) then watched mindless TV....it was awesome! I cherish the times we spend together like that. I can't believe how many times like that I missed because I was playing around in There the past year. Yet I feel bad because I know there are times he would like to go to the lab but stays home to entertain me.

I have continued my bed rest, well my feet elevated on the couch rest. OMG it is hard, I have so much time to think of all the things that need to get done!! But I really want to be able to finish working and go to term with Becca. I start a 15 day working stretch tonight. Only 5 of those days are evening shits and the rest are overnights. I sooo want to be able to complete those. If not my last paycheque before maternity leave will be FUBARed!!!! I know that sounds uber materialistic, but I have to make sure my family is ok finicially during maternity leave, we are not in the position to be too flexible! I guess I will find out more on Tuesday when we go back to see the OB.

Wednesday, Jun. 23, 2004 - 11:46 am Bed Rest ~ Scary Scary Scary
*sigh* I have been putting off adding a entry =(

We went to the OB appointment yesterday.....He found my blood pressure higher, traces of protien in my urine and well you have read all about my poor poor pitiful feet lately. All three symptoms points to a mild case of pre-eclampsia!!! I am so scared. The only "cure" is deliverying the baby early....ummmm NO NO NO, we are at 33 weeks only!!!! She needs to stay in there another 7 weeks!!!! So here is the deal though. It is only a mild case or the doctor would have admitted me into the hospital. My instructions are to rest, rest and to keep my feet elevated. I was in awe yesterday, I spent the entire afternoon and evening with my feet propped up, and for the first time in months my feet were completely de-swelled!!! w00t w00t~So for the next week I plan on resting as much as possible and hoping for the best. We go back to the doctor again next Tuesday so he can monitor the blood pressure to make sure it is not going higher. I so do not want to rush the baby.....I want her to be able to come out when she is good and ready! I am trying to not stress out and relax.

J is so sweet! He brought my computer into the living room so I can putter about while I am resting. Although typing while lying down with your feet elevated is quite the challenge! HAHA I have the time though!!

Oh to top off my day, my Dad called to let us know my Aunt Lee was in a car accident, luckily she will be ok, but from the sounds of it, the accident was quite serious. Sent get well wished with Dad! Poor Aunt Lee =(

Well I think I am going to go take a nap....I know it sounds like life is rough, but resting is hard work =P And very boring. But I so want to be able to finish working these last few shifts I have (almost all overnights which should be ok considering) *sigh*

Tuesday, Jun. 22, 2004 - 8:33 am typing as I run out the door......
I have to make this quick!!! Need to still shower before the OB appointment!

So I have been searching for lil communities to join as a Mom! on the internet. If you happen to read this and know of some cool ones please leave a note or email me. Thanks!

Oh I took some pics of Sidney and Charisma last night (dog and cat respectively). I plan on tweaking the pics with fireworks and post them =)

Oooo I created this cute lil avatar thingy...more details later!

Tuesday, Jun. 22, 2004 - 12:33 am Uber, Books, Birth & Oh My!
Ok so I did not make it back before I was done work ~ my damn feet starting swelling up again! So I kicked back on the recliner and enjoyed reading the chosen book =P

I am such a huge Stephen King reader. I so enjoy his work. I absolutely love the Gunslinger series and was overjoyed to see the second last book out. I read through it rather quickly and I may be rereading in the months to come to make sure I did not miss much. Part of my joy when reading King's work is the fact that I can become so immersed into his stories. And OMG OMG OMG I am going to quote him because this is so cool!!!

The Dark Tower is my uberstory, no question about that.

King, Stephen. Song of Susannah; The Dark Tower VI. New York: Scribner, 407.

SO OMG King used the word Uber!!! For those of you that are unaware, Uber has been part of a catch phrase that I had used in the online community There and made me well famous (if you go to the main page that is me Teara...hahah I am There's Poster Girl). So when I was reading the novel, I was so taken that King used the word Uber!!! Too Cool!

LMAO...ok back to my chosen book for the moment. Ironically I just read this novel last year with a friend. He and I would pick a book and read it at the same time and chat about it online. Our own little version of Oprah's Book Club I suppose =P HAHAHA Uber King Book Club...Anyway....At this time I am reading The Stand by Stephen King. The story is such an amazing concept and I love how King has the characters go through the experience. I get completely lost in it.

Rereading books is a totally new concept to me. I had always avoided it. My thought was that if it was a great book I read it well enough the first time and that I would be bored revisiting the same story. OMG I was so wrong. This past year (partly due to the fact that money is a lil tight) I have gone back to my collection of King's work (the collection itself gives my great pride). I have enjoyed rereading each book!!! Sometimes enjoying it more than I did the first time. Some of King's books I read when I was a teenager and my comprehension level is so much higher now (or at least I would like to think so =P). So at the moment The Stand is the chosen one. I really hope I finish it before Rebecca arrives though. It is a bit dooms day to be reading at the birth of our first child.

Speaking of the birth. I totally put J through an emotional rollarcoaster ride the last few weeks about being on our own when she is born. It seems like all the women that we talk to that have had or are about to have thier first child, have help in the form of their mom or mother-in-law coming to stay with them. So in my very pregnant emotional state, I had a surge of anxiety. Thankfully J is totally paitent with me (even more so now that I am pregnant, which is difficult to imagine more paitence!!), talked with his mom (she is a goddess) and made arrangements so that if we need her to come she will come help us out when Rebecca arrives. At first I had thought she was totally coming for sure (keep in mind she is on the other side of the COUNTRY, not a hop skip and a jump away) so I totally did not want my dad to feel like, the In-Laws are welcome and he wasn't. So the last time we talked I made sure my Dad knew that he was welcome to come once Rebecca was born....I am soooo not having anyone present at the actual birth besides J....hahaha! No. It was so awesome, my Dad got totally excited and totally wants to come! It is so sweet!!! He is such an awesome Dad!

Eeeep! Look at the time.....I must babble more tomorrow! We have an OB appointment in the morning so I totally need to get some sleep....Besides I miss my husband when I work evenings like this. More brain pukes tomorrow!!

Monday, Jun. 21, 2004 - 3:34 pm Ramblings
w00t w00t Back at work!! I know most people would consider the amount of joy I am getting from this simple blog a lil odd. But it is so wonderful to have a hobby =P

I talked to Porscha today. Man I miss hanging out with her more. However, I have a sense of freedom not being involved hardcore in an online game/community. My world has moved on....I just hope that I can keep in contact with the few people that I have grow so fond of. They are the few people that will probably read my ramblings!

hehe I actually hope my husband reads them too! With my pregnancy memory it may help us not forget to tell each other stuff......Honey, we have a doctor's appointment tomorrow!!!!

Weee! We get to go see the OB tomorrow! It really seems like forever since we were there (hahah 3 weeks in reality). The last appointment was different though, J. was away at a conference so it was just me. He is so awesome that is the only appointment he has missed! I seriously have the most amazing husband, I could send days bragging about him. HAHAHAHA! Excep when Sidney and J hog the bed!!!

ARG! Back to my swollen feet =P I was so sore last night, and seriously J and Sidney totally took up the entire bed! Sidney is our Border Collie *FYI*. She squirmed her way in between us and totally was trying to push me off the bed. I got soooo cranky about!! Poor Poor J!!!

Well I should go get some work done =P I would not be surprised if I pop back later....hehehe!

Monday, Jun. 21, 2004 - 10:25 am New Template!!!
Wow, I finally found a template I actually like! Thank You Eris for the simplistic yet classy look!

I was talking to J last night about all this blog jazz. He recommended >